Shame is a terrible thing...

Shame... there is a lot of it going around. It's a subtle beast that infects the inner workings of the soul, and eats it from the inside out. It comes in many forms....'You used to be so thin and beautiful', 'Maybe you shouldn't eat that.', 'I thought you were trying to lose weight?'....  I'll admit I have been neglectful of this blog, mainly out of self-shame. I fell off the food wagon when David and I went on vacation in late July, then I got sick, and it was one thing after another and then boom... I'm right back where I started. My goal this week. To once again wean David and I off of processed foods. It's a partnership here when it comes to dinners, I'm not going to cook one way for me and another for David, we're both going to eat healthy. As for exercise, I am still on Dr.'s orders to take it easy until Thursday when I get my stent removed, then I'll be back in action. Slowly. I don't want to go all gung ho and wear myself out and get discouraged. It's a slow process.... but I'll get there. To my audience, thank you for being so patient.

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