Project 23 a Journey Back to Myself

One of the things that I have to deal with on a 24/7 basis is managing my bipolar disorder. For some it is an easy task, for me it's a daily struggle of managing meds, moods, and my PTSD. Daunting task... very much so. It's so easy for others to say 'Snap out of it' or 'Take a pill and get over it'... Gosh if it were only that easy. The one thing that I have discovered in the almost 16 years of managing this brain disorder is that I wish there was an 'on off' switch. Last week I crashed and burned in a big way.... that's the only way I can describe it. After being awake almost 50+ hours with the 'committee' going 100+ MPH, plus the anxiety mixed with rage I was a train wreck. I am so very blessed to have a great support system. My husband, God bless him, is amazing. I am so thankful for him. This past week when I was in the hospital he was cool as a cucumber, didn't freak out, and he was my rock. I have to shout out to Sutter Center for P...

Ok, I think I really do need a 12 Step program for  Buffalo Wild Wings , it's midnight and I'm nuking my leftovers... actually in all honesty, I need a 12 Step program for food in general. For sugar, carbs, soda.... Jalepeno chips.... Oye. Admitting I have a problem is the first step, thought I was doing that in February. So much for accountability, I pretty much fell off the wagon and rolled down the hill, crashed into another wagon and went KABOOM! Sigh. I know, over share, but one day someone is going to pay me for my witty insight and logic that doesn't resemble our Earth logic. It's late, I'm hypomanic... sarcasm is eminent.