Project 23 a Journey Back to Myself

So off the mark today mentally. Going to nap then reboot tomorrow. 

Well, I fell off the wagon last night and had a Coke Zero soda. It was one of those things that I didn't think about and automatically ordered it at Chili's when I ordered my dinner. I'm not going to beat myself up over it though, it happens. Not like I horked down a double fudge brownie sundae with extra whipped cream. I know, that was EVIL.... So, I got no sleep last night. My manic episodes are more frequent these past three days and last night I got started on a project and before I knew it six o'clock in the morning rolled around. Good news is.... I lost a pound and a half. I think it was just water weight, but still. I was like whooot!

Had a great day yesterday, got some good sleep (even though it took me til three in the morning to get to sleep). Got up and had brunch (it was too late for breakfast food). Got in laundry, exercise, some blogging, found an app for my iPhone to track calories/carbs and weight loss as well as one to help log my blood sugars. Had a great dinner at  Chili's Grill & Bar  with David (Chicken tacos and black beans). Then went and got some more exercise at Target (Walking around the store for 45 minutes). Tomorrow, more laundry and the gym. I need to glean my iTunes for some work out playlists. It wasn't as overwhelming as I thought it would be. I have the tendency to take the new things in my life and blow them completely out of proportion. I had a great talk with a good friend about my new lifestyle change and was able to flush out some ideas about my plan and process. 

Whole grain sprouted bread, it really doesn't taste like cardboard or tree bark. Not that I've ever eaten tree bark....had it pulled out of the back of my leg after a bicycle accident, but never ate it per say.

Overslept, not the best way I wanted to start this, but it's what I NEEDED. After dealing with a two day manic episode I needed the sleep after finally crashing at three in the morning. Don't even get me started on that issue, for me it's something I have to deal with and I do so. I had 'brunch' this afternoon.... a simple meal. Instead of something ooey gooey and cheesy (which is my downfall), I chose whole sprouted grains and probiotic yogurt, and water. Water, that's another thing. We don't drink enough of it. When I was training in the Navy my fitness coach had me drinking 96oz of water per day. Lately, between sodas, milk and Crystal Lite I was drinking maybe two glasses of water per day, not good. So water it is. Crystal Lite is good if you want flavor, but it's not always convenient. I need to go through my water bottles and find one I can easily use on a daily basis. Sounds kind of kindergarten, but I've got every kind and size of water bottl...

Can't sleep. Help!

So what's the plan??? To be perfectly honest I'm not quite sure. When I quit drinking almost 19 years ago I quit cold turkey, I went through detox. You can't quit eating. But you can detox. My physician and dietician have set down the guideline of 45 carbs per meal. Unlike the girl that lost 100 lbs in the article I posted on FB, I'm not going to fast or juice, for a diabetic that just is not healthy. I want to lose weight and eat healthy, but I also don't want to shock my body systems. I want to lose the weight realistically without any trendy new age diet. I don't want to eat that way for the rest of my life. Portion control and carb control is key. So is getting the right amount of vegetables, proteins and fruits into my food plan as well. Right now I weigh 201 lbs. Yes, I said it out loud. It's just like the first time I went to an AA meeting and said, 'Hi, I'm Kimberly and I'm an alcoholic'. Admitting I had a problem was the first step. ...

Those of my friends that have met me in the past 18 years have known that I have struggled with weight and food/carb addiction. Last year's diagnosis of Type 1 diabetes and kidney damage really put things in perspective for me health and we ight wise. It's not an easy road. I'm a recovering alcoholic and a Bipolar survivor, I also deal with diabetes, heart disease and carb addiction. This year is a new year for me and a new lease on life. I am eating better, feeling better, striving to get more exercise, and take care of myself physically and mentally. I am blessed with an awesome support system with my David and friends and family. I want my old 'Navy body' back, I have noticed that people treat me differently since they have seen that I've either put on weight, or lost weight. (I've lost 21 lbs since my kidney diagnosis last November). What matters is how I feel about myself, and I know I haven't taken care of myself. I CAN change that, and that is key...